her back is to him when he speaks, and she’s almost halfway around a bench, but his voice is soft — and it carries an undercurrent of pain that she cannot ignore.
he doesn’t reach for her but the gesture is felt nonetheless, and as hard as she has had to be — there are parts of her that are still soft, and they soften with his words.
the shawl wrapped around her shoulders tightens as she turns slowly to face him and then settle back on the bench.
‘ it’s okay, I understand. you’re hurting. ‘
she does not understand in a Temple full of enlightened beings that such suffering of one of their own is allowed to exist —- to continue without some kind of gentle care. how long has his soul been screaming, she wondered.
lilly also realizes, after the words leave her mouth, she has no right to read him or his dreams without at least his permission.
‘ — sorry, I mean — I felt— I saw — ‘
she fumbles with the words, heavy on her tongue as she looks down at the ground. the woman is ashamed of sensing before asking, a habit not easily broken. not to mention she’s still getting used to the idea that there are others like her who won’t call her a freak for what she can do.
‘ I mean I probably was just as surprised to see you as you were to see me. ‘
lame, constantine.
he speaks of his master, obi-wan kenobi of the council, and she mentally plays back the brief meeting she had had with the council — searching for the man in the circle that belonged to the name.
‘ does he have kind eyes and a soft voice? kinda cute? and by kinda, I mean super cute. ‘
she offers him her best lopsided grin, a roguish smile at best really. if she wasn’t so out of her element, she’d be flirting with him too — but discretion tells her that this isn’t the time, nor the place for that sort of thing. won’t stop her from trying to lighten the mood a little bit.
‘ yeah, he was there. didn’t say much though, none of them did. I don’t think they know what to do with me yet. I hope they figure it out, and soon, I miss the ocean. ‘
HE TENSES, SLAMMING his shields back down with the force of closing hanger doors. Sealed && impenetrable, he visualizes his mind as a rocky cliff face, spidering with near-invisible seams to the inside. His thoughts pulse violently in their containment, battering his mental blockade from the inside-out. But Anakin is relentless in his shame, in his unwillingness to share these darker corners of himself with anybody, let alone a practical stranger such as Miss Constantine.
At least she recognizes the breach in privacy for what it is. But Anakin can only find it within himself to nod shakily in turn, still unbalanced by the validity of her statement.
❝ It’s— fine. ❞ He’d been the same way in the beginning: overflowing, his brain on fire with the force && all of the universe screaming through his bones. There’d been a time when Anakin couldn’t close his eyes without seeing the living force flashing on the backs of his lids. A net of flame; the living force hangs like water droplets at its intersections, spinning && warping endlessly. Lattices of light merge, break, && reform in fractal patterns.
The mention of his master presses a pink flush to the tips of his ears && down the back of his neck. Anakin has to resist scratching behind his head in nervous habit. ❝ Ah— uh, I mean…yes? ❞ Kind of cute? Super cute? He’s not blind but he’s certainly not used to confronting that particular reality. Sure, plenty of people—both men, women, && other—take the time to ogle his master when he walks by. && yes, maybe Anakin has also caught himself ogling Obi-Wan—
Ahem.
❝ The ocean? Where are you from? ❞ He jumps on the subject change, curiosity piqued by the mention of an ocean. Or ‘the ocean’ as Lilly puts it.
Hello and welcome to my blog! Thank you for taking the time to read my rules, I'll try and make this as quick as possible.
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*Padmé is an exception to this rule as her relationship with Anakin is canon and vital to his characterization.
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verses
CANON.
AU.
PRIVATE.
TAKE THE LIGHT INSIDE YOU.
Freed from slavery on Tatooine and freshly initiated into the Jedi Order, Padawan Skywalker works tirelessly to prove himself to the meticulous Council and earn his Knighthood. But with age comes uncertainty, and the beginning of a series of terrible nightmares featuring his mother's death. Every day the bright, enthusiastic child Qui-Gon Jinn brought to the Temple grows more and more distant from himself and others.
WEAPON OF WAR.
The galaxy is at war but Anakin Skywalker is fighting more than just external battles. Suspended between his loyalty to the Order and his loyalty to his wife, Anakin struggles to find a guiding light in the increasing darkness. And now that the nightmares have returned with his wife as their new feature, Anakin has begun to grow more and more desperate for a method to save Padmé from what he believes to be her doom.
THE WORST PARTS OF HIMSELF.
Anakin Skywalker died with the Republic, and in their place rose the Empire and its right hand: Darth Vader. Who will stop at nothing to rid the galaxy of every lingering memory of the life he had before his fall.
WHAT A MESS I LEAVE
Redeemed in the eyes of the Force, Anakin Skywalker has been granted sentience beyond death, allowing him to reach out to his descendents and warn them against repeating his mistakes.
FILTH TEACHES FILTH. stranger things Before 008, before 011, there was subject 001. Anakin Skywalker, the first of an entire generation veined with strange, incomprehensible powers. Disappeared at sixteen after his mother's mysteriously unreported murder at the hands of a local gang. His escape preceded 11's only by a few years, && now he's back in Hawkins on the trail of Brenner's prodigy.
SPANDEX & STEEL. marvel/dc
Born and raised in Tatooine, New Mexico, Anakin didn't think himself any different from the rest of the lonely souls living in the desert. That is, until his mother was killed by local gang members, jumpstarting a series of strange murders that forced him to go on the run. He's a metahuman, a mutant; with strange powers he can't control and the blood of several seriel murderers on his hands. Sometimes he owns a small car shop just outside of town, and sometimes he doesn't have a home at all.
WHEN THE WAR WINS. modern
Anakin, a war vet secluded in a no-name town in the middle of New Mexico, works to overcome his ptsd by becoming a hermit && buying the house his mother died in. His progress has been shaky, for obvious reasons.
DON'T CALL THIS REDEMPTION alternate ending
Believing himself to have died after passing out at the end of ROTJ, Vader, or Anakin now, awakens to a post-war galaxy to discover the eternal peace he sought is still far out of reach. Now a prisoner of the New Republic, Vader works alongside the Rebellion in secret as they dismantle the last vestiges of the Empire.
A DIFFERENT KIND OF LEGACY.
A private verse tied into ahphra's Sith verse and shadcwpreacher's alternate background. In this verse, after being rebuffed by his son, Vader looks to train Doctor Chelli Aphra as his apprentice.
The dark is generous, and it is patient. It is the dark that seeds cruelty into justice, that drips contempt into compassion, that poisons love with grains of doubt. The dark can be patient, because the slightest drop of rain will cause those seeds to sprout. The rain will come, and the seeds will sprout, for the dark is the soil in which they grow, and it is the clouds above them, and it waits behind the star that gives them light. The dark’s patience is infinite. Eventually, even stars burn out.
AND WE ASK OURSELVES
Are monsters born, or made?
Let me tell you the story that's been scored into the stars. The family that turned the galaxy upside down. There was a man, with the weight of a prophecy lining his shoulders, and a thermonuclear furnace in his heart. He loved a woman, a proud, strong, kind woman who loved him equally, despite the anger, and the Darkness that grew in him. And the man watched her die every night in his dreams.
That man told himself if he can carry a prophecy, he can prevent a dream from becoming reality. Whatever it takes.
Whoever it takes.
SO WHAT HAPPENED
The man exchanged his loyalty for her life, and killed the people who raised him. He ended a war in one night, the fire of the gods burning behind him on a metal moutaintop.
The woman he loved was no fool, she could sight a fire started in her name. A queen knows when someone is bowing.
She meets him on a molten planet, begs him to stray from the Darkness. But there is a shadow in the place of the man she loved, a monster.
He takes her breath to silence her, doomed to paranoia on the arrival of his brother, who is too, in some ways, a shadow. Forced to kill the man meant to save them all.
So the man dies, and is reborn. Baptized by fire. The woman he loved dies too. And eventually, even the brother dies.
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