“ i will never leave, anakin. it will be this , always, for as long as the force will let me. “
the song of achilles meme // accepting
WILL HIS HEART always be like this — wounded && animal — lurching against the white of his ribcage? There might as well be galaxies between them for all the secrets Anakin’s kept from his former master, from all the times Obi-Wan hadn’t thought to ask.
They’ve made this far, living like trees in winter, bodies bared for a victory that may never come. Anakin had once believed their bond could withstand anything, even this war, but it’s become steadily apparent that’s not the case. Their connection frays, trust shriveling to brittle strands that will barely reach for one another, should they continue on like this.
Anakin’s flesh && blood fingers travel to Obi-Wan’s wrist, pressing for the thready reassurance of a pulse through his tunic. A nervous tic that stretches back to childhood, Obi-wan would often wake to find Anakin standing by his bed, watching him sleep, afraid he might stop breathing if the boy left him alone. His thoughts still grow teeth in the dead of the night, && come to gnaw && threaten the security of those he loves. He’s just gotten better at hiding it.
❝ Master— Obi-Wan… ❞ He steps closer now, hand traveling to grip the older man’s shoulder almost possessively. ❝ Do you promise? ❞ The nearness of him could crush you. Like being held by the sun. Or standing in a supernova.
❝ I can’t lose you too. ❞ A wince tightens the skin around his dark eyes, both for the remembrance of his mother’s demise && the fact that he’s not shared it with Obi-Wan. Salt pricks at the corners of his focus. Anakin has to will himself not to cry, even with the impulse stinging the back of his throat. A sob waiting to be torn free.
❝ I won’t lose you. ❞
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