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        then you’re not vader, you’re you. it doesn’t matter what you were or what you did, you…became good in the end, right? ’ 

         HE HAD NEVER been one to linger against the tides of being, preferring to move along with the flow, facing the future head on. all people were entities that could be forgiving, the young man searching and finding the good in the people he knew and the people he will go on to meet. if the presence before him, timeless and old, turned to the tide of good intentions: there was hope for all. his heart flutters, and for a moment he finds hope for the tall man that scoured the wound that throbs so hotly down his back. he hopes that KYLO will come back to the light one day, to cast away the shadow that lingers and bring smiles to his mother’s face, even if it were weary and tired; to rey’s sand worn face, though fleeting and rare.  finn forgives as he loves, openly and wholly.  ‘ so you know my name but i don’t know your ACTUAL name.

        and oh how finn is comforted by the tremors of vader’s words, more warmth settling deeply in his mind. he wonders, abashed even at his unspoken thoughts, was this what it was like to know a FATHER? to feel reassured and motivated simply by their acknowledgemen? was this what he would have had in another life? the warmth is so different from the relief that he felt in the order. it was harder to place than just feeling happy that he finally didn’t get reprimanded for being slow or sloppy.

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        i want them to be my family. his voice is heavy with emotion, tears weighing down the vocals and clinging to dark eyelashes.  i want them to love me but i don’t know as much as they do, i’m flawed! i’m just — i don’t even think i know how to be in a family.

     ❝ IT IS NOT wise to forget one’s past. The consequences of my actions will continue to influence the progress of history regardless of my return to the light. I own my mistakes, I accept them, && I seek to help others so that they will not make the same ones. ❞ It’s said that history is doomed to repeat itself, && already Anakin can match the parallels in Ben’s fall && his own, as well as the construction of the First Order && the obvious inspiration it takes from the Empire in its totalitarian ambition. He may not even have his bones anymore but Anakin will stop at nothing to ensure more lives are not lost to a legacy he helped to build. 

     The apparition casts Finn a sidelong glance, mouth moving towards the crisp shape of kindness. ❝ You may call me Anakin. ❞ I’m a person && my name is Anakin! In another life, it could’ve been his only name. In a galaxy where he loved without loss && lived without monsters lurking behind his every thought. 

               He could’ve fought the fire without letting it consume him.

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     ❝ Peace, Finn. Peace. ❞ He clasps his hands behind his back, balancing nonchalance with military posture. Some kind of strange in-between neither of his children have inherited from him. ❝ It is your conditioning that has led you to believe that flaws equal failures. You are not perfect. No one is. If we were, we wouldn’t need each other. ❞

 
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