empireworthy.

       The quiet is alluring  ,   lulls her into the false sense of safety   ;   she hasn’t had a moment like this in ages   .   Fear on the thick of her lips   ,   eyes wide and searching in the moonlight   ,   yearning for something to give her life meaning  ;   a purpose beyond simply existing  .   He must think that he knows her    ;    sees the wealth seeping from her gold-stained fingertips   &   assumes that her life as been all pomp and class   .    Surely he’s come to the conclusion that she hasn’t been marred by the staggering pain of misfortune   .    He isn’t entirely wrong   .

       Within her  ,   deeply  ,   a strangled voice screams   ━    (   you don’t know me   !    !    !   you don’t   !   ! !    )    ━   scrapes against the walls of her vocal chords   ,   begging for release   .   But she remains quiet   ,   a master in the art of silencing herself around big men  .   An inferiority beaten into her mind at every step of the way  ,   maiming her skin with unyielding obedience   .   The feeling of reverting back to her youthful conformity is akin to the feeling of falling   &   below her pointed heels the ground threatens to rise up and consume her whole   .

       But she is no longer that woman   ━    (   a fact that is easily forgotten in the right company   )   ;    drowning herself to keep men afloat   .   She has been baptized with innocent blood and lulled to sleep by slaughterhouse screams   ━    and never again will she burn to keep a man warm   .   Never again will she silence herself and cower to make a man feel powerful   .


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       Fingers tremble  ;   she grips her scarf to keep them from shaking noticeably   .   Feigning confidence is easy   ,   but her heart beat stutters in her chest and is amplified to her ear drums  .   Pulsating   &    deafening   ; a siren warning her of the strife that will surely come if she doesn’t stop   .   Yet   ,   she finds herself unable to quit   ━   a consequence of counterfeiting bravery   ,   occasionally you begin to believe it yourself   .   The floorboards creak against her shifting weight   ,   one last protest against the words about to shoot from her mouth as quickly as bullets from a gun   .

              ❛    I imagine I’m not important to you   ,   just another pawn   ━    on what must be a large playing field   .   An insect   ,   crushed easily beneath brutish steps   .   Tell me  ,   do you have any sort of humanity left    ━   or has that all been burned away too   ?    ❜

《 @thcrmonuclear || continued from this ask 

               VADER STANDS THEN, as fast as a snake poising to strike, all its deadly grace transfigured into a bipedal posture. Toneless, he turns to her, that backlit face sculpted from discipline && shadow. && a grim smile edged by moonlight, mingled with a trace of low-burning lamplight that sets his long incisors aflame. A predator by every definition; somewhat amused by the quick stream of her assumptions. 

               Fear makes people chatty, prone to demanding information they cannot understand — anything to distract from the coiled dragon across from them. 

               She wants to make this personal, his impassivity understood as a dig at her value rather than a product of Vader’s preexisting apathy. He only thinks so little of her because she hasn’t yet proven herself to be someone worth thinking much of. But still the fine threads of his patience strain dangerously close to snapping. His temper is a forest fire, && he finds new ways to immolate with each passing day. 

               She speaks of burning without the wisdom to realize the flames would consume her too. She’s thinks her incautious mettle to be immortality. A common mistake. Vader had made it once himself. && he’ll wear the scars from it to his grave.

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     ❝ You imagine quite a lot, Miss Dolor. ❞ He had turned to look out the large window behind his desk at some point, actions too quick or too quiet for Vija to catch. He has an incomparable ability to fade into the dark. ❝ You are here for a job, not an interview. ❞ Footsteps pound against the hardwood floor as Vader slices across the room, moving to tower over the girl, a feral glint in his eyes. ❝ You would be wise to remember that. ❞

 
independent & private roleplay blog for anakin skywalker/darth vader of all star wars media. written by scout. || est. feb 2016.