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  FOR ALL THE lack of his feet on the ground , he’s never felt gravity in all its weighted beauty like he does now ; uprooted from the curve of the earth & still tethered to Anakin by the strength of their embrace , pulling him in in in like the guide of a waypoint .

  IN THAT SMALL blip of time that exists outside of the war , when their kindness for each other isn’t a measurement of vulnerability , when Obi-wan’s regard for Anakin is no longer the edge of a bite or a nervous hole in his chest       he breathes deep & easy , saves the feeling of his callouses against the rough wool of Anakin’s cloak to memory , the same way he saved every word they sent to each other by pressing his thumb to every letter . that same thumb that guides his lightsaber to life ; sentiment mingled with survival .

  IT’S NO SURPRISE they would go hand in hand , as Obi-wan & Anakin always have . two jedi , two friends , two halves of a whole – balanced on a knife edge ; the war & THEM .

  ‘              well that seems excessive .               the words are stuck against the press of Anakin’s shoulder to his mouth ; but he doesn’t move , even if all pretenses of NORMALCY say he should .             I only missed you 6 times .              he hopes Anakin can feel him smile through cloth & skin alike . down to the very bone

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               ANAKIN RESOLVES TO give Obi-Wan one more meaningful squeeze before setting his former master down on his own two feet again. Giddy sparks of anticipation && anxiety bite at the Jedi Knight’s heels, && behind all of it there is hope; a nigh-unfamiliar light that bellows through him.

               When Obi-Wan had left so suddenly after their…altercation, Anakin had been angry. But he had enough sense to conceal his glaringly destructive nature && the urge to lash out prompted by it. Something as forbidden as what had transpired between them has to be kept under lock && key. Anakin had learned that much from his relationship with Padme. Padme…who’s known how Anakin feels about his master probably before he did. Who’d encouraged him to try to talk to Obi-Wan instead of remaining angry at him. 

               The holomessages that Anakin began to send Obi-Wan every night while he was away were a product of that suggestion. 

               && look where they are now

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     ❝ C’mon, ❞ he hefts Obi-Wan’s bags onto either shoulder with very little visible strain, && cocks his head towards the temple entrance. ❝ I picked us up Dex’s for dinner. ❞ They have a lot of talking to do. 

 
independent & private roleplay blog for anakin skywalker/darth vader of all star wars media. written by scout. || est. feb 2016.